Disappointing

So it has been quite a while and things have definitely changed. For the better? I'd like to think so but some days, I have to wonder. The most major of changes would be the fact that I got married and moved to be with my Air Force husband. It is great being able to be together again but it is hard being away from my family and friends back home, I must admit. Even harder is being somewhere you don't know anyone with no idea how to meet anyone. It's bringing back a lot of my depression. I feel pathetic sitting here day in and day out. No job, no friends, no purpose. I could at least be a decent homemaker but even that seems to be too much for me. I wish I could at least be going back to school but spring semester is well into session so I wont be able to start til fall. I seem to have no motivation anyway. I've lost interest in so many things over the past couple of years and there seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel. This isn't how I pictured my life at this point. It seems all the things I dreamed of my life being have been so opposite.

Funny, I thought getting all this out of my system would help but it really isn't...