Labor Day Weekend

I am SO ready for this weekend. I have been busting my butt at work and need a vacation. All I have done for the past two weeks is work, work, work. All day, every day. *sigh* It's really wearing on me. Jay is nearly home and we'll leave tomorrow once I finish my half day at work to head out of town. We're planning on going to Busch Gardens over the weekend since we get a somewhat long weekend and haven't done much of anything all summer. It'll also be nice to get away, just the two of us. So much has been going on around here lately and I'm ready to just get my mind off of it all. So yeah, I'll be busy but I'm taking my laptop so I may be around anyway... who knows.

Life isn't fair, true. But I just don't get it.

My life has taken a very crazy turn in the matter of a few days. Well, not so much my life personally but the lives of those around me. Which still affects me. I don't care to explain but what gets me the most is the lack of acceptance of people. And how quick they are to judge and accept good gossip without taking the time to inform themselves. I am also very disappointed in the media and how quick they are to put things out there that may or may not be true without at least protecting identities until they know for sure. Don't they understand they could possibly be ruining someone's life? Do they even care??

I am truly upset about this. Among many other things these days. It all seems so hopeless.

Wow, really??

Seems this is going to be one of the most interesting weeks of my life thus far. And not so much in a good way. I'm not personally affected by the things going on (that of course I cannot talk about, ugh!) but still, I am affected by association. This stuff is just CRAZY. Like beyond all means. *sigh*

As for parts of the day I haven't been asked not to repeat, it was a very. long. day. It's going to be a very- LONG - week. I didn't get home from the base until after midnight last night and had to be up at 6 for work. I figured I'd work my usual (meaning I get off around 1 p.m.) and head home for a nap to hold me over. Nope! My friend ended up with strep throat and I got stuck there til closing at 6. Wouldn't have been so bad if I had known before hand but when you are only a couple of hours away from the time you believe you'll get off work and THEN find out you'll work another 5-6 hours.. it makes for a rather long day. Especially on less than 5 hours of sleep and no food. Oh well.. I'll be thankful for it once my paycheck comes along with some good overtime pay that I'm not supposed to get, hehe. But yeah, I came home at conked out around 7:30 then got up to get a shower and here I am throwing my sleep schedule off. Oh well.

Tomorrow officially starts my new schedule at work. Which I haven't filled "you" in on. Since school seems to be a no go this semester (I swear it was all a sign but that's another story for another time when I don't have to be at work in the morning) I am now filling the positions of 3 people at work. My own, a girl who quit last week on a whim, and a girl they're trying to work off schedule in a somewhat shady way. So I get right at 40 hours a week and they'll do all they can to keep away from giving me overtime. Which isn't working already. But at least that means they wont work me on the weekends unless its an emergency so I'll be free to visit Jay and vice versa. Plus I'll be making good pay so although school is at a halt, it's not a complete loss for now.

Oh but speaking of the lovely job.. I get to learn how to do the deliveries and runs between stores in the morning with the boss man so I will be needing my beauty rest.. I must be going now. Til next time.. pray for me! Haha.

Ho Hum

Yay for my luck! Not. *sigh* What's the saying.. "when it rains, it pours?" Yep. That's fitting. Oh well.

So last night, my phone finally had all the water damage it could handle and called it quits. Go figure; about a month too soon to upgrade. My at the timing. =/ On top of that my car's tags, registration, and inspection run out this month and wouldn't you know it- every medial place I have been to recently decided to bill me in the same time frame! And on top of everything, I can't get anything done about my school schedule until the last minute since an advisor has to sign off on the classes. And due to the fact I can't inform my employer of my availability (although it'll be pretty open since I never get financial aid and can't afford to take but a class at a time) he is now interviewing to hire someone more available which will probably drastically cut into my hours. Great. Less pay on top of many things that need money! Thanks a lot. Ughh...

Seems like everything decides to aggrivate me at once but I suppose there's nothing to do but deal. Guess that's what I'm off to do now. Wish me luck!

Bad Me!

Haha.. so I was doing fine and dandy saving money until today rolled around. Mostly because since I worked all week, I had no time to spend. So today Sierra and I went to Greensboro in search of books and make-up. I had no luck so I came home and hit up Amazon and Sephora online. Bad choice. I have spent the last several hours looking at reviews and prices and finally made my selections. I spent right at $100 which wasn't bad but right now, I'd probably be better off saving all I can with no unnecessary spending. Opps. Haha. *sigh* I'm a girl.. what do you expect?? Now if only I could get them tomorrow, I would feel it was worth while. That's the worst part of online shopping... you have to wait around to "play" with your purchases. I'm impatient!

In other news...

There was yet another death from my small high school. I found out a few days ago but it wasn't until today that it really hit me. I wasn't close to the guy or anything but when you graduate with a class of barely 80 people; everyone knows everyone. He was a grade above me. He and 3 other guys from my school have been painting water towers since they graduated. They were in New Hampshire painting a tower when he fell 70 feet to his death. It's so tragic. He died so young. Those guys have been friends since grade school and to watch someone close to them die like that, I can only imagine their pain. My heart goes out to his family and friends. They have set his wake to be at the high school Tuesday night and I may go after work. It is all so surreal. It wasn't until I watched the news broadcast from New Hampshire online this morning that it really sank in; They talked about the events from a strangers point of view and showed the water tower they had been working on... it's just crazy.

I'm beginning to hit a block in writing. This all still has me a bit speechless. I guess I will end this here by saying R.I.P. Matt; I wish your family and friends all the love and support it will take to get through such a difficult time.

I suck at this! Haha.

Wow... talk about slacking. *sigh* I don't know what my issue is these days. I haven't been motivated to much of anything lately, though. Don't know what my problem is anymore. =/ This week has sucked for the most part and I haven't felt like doing anything. I feel like I'm falling back into the rut I keep finding myself in from time to time and that scares me. Especially with fall semester starting in a couple of weeks. Of course I don't have any idea what to do about that. Or work. Or anything really. I feel like there is so much I need to do but I don't have the energy or drive to do it. Only good news I have really had this week was that my dad's land finally sold and that he found "us" a '04 Mach 1 Mustang. *happy dance!* I haven't really even been too excited about that but it's mostly due to the fact I don't wanna get my hopes up and then something happens. We're gonna go look at it together Monday afternoon, though.

But yea, as far as everything else... I just don't know anymore. I feel so overwhelmed and have so many things going through my mind but I can't seem to organize my thoughts. I wish I felt like I could just sit down and figure out everything but it seems impossible. I feel so confused about everything anymore.. and I mean, EVERYTHING. Which worries me as well. I just wish I had some direction in my life. I wish I knew the right thing to do. I feel like if I at least knew I was doing the right thing and making some kind of progress, doing the work and so forth wouldn't be such an issue. *sigh* I just don't know. I was hoping I could get some of this out and help clear my mind with this but it seems to be going nowhere. I feel like I'm just talking in circles. I think I'll just go curl up with a book and forget my own life for a while...

Short and Sweet

So I am already slacking on this but it's mostly due to the fact that I ran off to Goldsboro for the weekend. I just got back and am trying to catch up a bit around the web. More than likely I'll call it a night soon and will work on things more tomorrow. I have some unpacking to do and so forth but I should have a good amount of time to update before work. If not, tomorrow night. So I just wanted to stop by and make a quick attempt; explain my absence as well as promise to fill y'all in on life here lately. Oh well.. til then, good night! =)

Can you tell I'm new at this?

So yea, I decided to make a blog. Looking back on my old one made me realize just how much I miss it. Haha, it also reminded me just how much I have forgotten. It's almost sad how bad off my memory is so I feel this will definitely come in handy. I want to be able to look back on the things I've done and but if I leave it up to my brain alone, I'll never remember any of it. Just reading over my old blog triggered many memories and also many questions. So, here's to a fresh start on the memories I'm making now. Hopefully I'll be able to update often and not only will this serve the purpose I just talked about but it will help those who care about me, keep up with what's going on in my life.

Well, since it is now almost one in the morning, I am going to hit the hay but I hope to continue working on this as the week goes on!